Wednesday, March 31, 2010

Death Watch Journal for Kevin Varga - DAY 49

I am going to try and be positive today, but that emotion seems to be in high demand lately. I try daily to think of something to stay positive. To that end I was going to open my Bible. I prayed that God guide my hand to open it to a place that he would “speak” to me through his words. I know that many of you do not read the Bible not believe in Gold altogether, but I do and hope that you do not mind me talking today about the Bible. Well when I open my Bible to a ransom spot it opened onto the passages of Lamentation 3:14-66, I am no Bible scholar to know the Bible through and through. I put it to you to read what I read there. My blood ran cold as I read these words. I thought to myself that God could have seen into my heart to lead me here. I could have written these words myself. I call your attention to the verses of Lamentations 3:53-57…

They thought they had destroyed my life in the dungeon and cast a stone over it above me. The water ran down on my head; I said, I am gone. I called upon your name, O Lord, out of the depths of the mire of the dungeon. You heard my voice then: O hide not your ear now at my prayer for relief. You drew near on the day I called to You; You said, Fear not.

How can I not believe after this? Is it pure coincidence that I prayed for guidance and have been lead to that certain set of passages? I do not believe in a coincidence that big. I am sure that many of you will still doubt and that is your right/ I myself have faith that God is real. I do not prescribe to any organized religion, I am a Christian in the purest sense. The meaning of the term “Christian” is Christ-like, to be like Christ is important. I fail on that so many times in a day. I wish I could write to you that I am the epitome of Christianity, but I am not. I still pray to God for salvation and relief. I am confident that when I die I will be brought to the kingdom of Heaven, can each of you say the same? I once heard somewhere a good thing. It went something like this… If I am wrong and there is no God then I have wasted my time with prayer and hopefully a good example, but if you are wrong then you will go to Hell. Think about this for a moment. Wouldn’t it be better to pray for salvation? I do not wish to preach only to share with you my own thoughts on the topic of God.

Thank you.

42 days to live.

Kevin Varga 999368
Polunsky Unit
3872 FM 350 South
Livingston, TX 77351

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