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Thursday, April 26, 2018

What’s New, Youngin’?

By Vernon Robinson

“I don’t need that crap!”

Damn oldheads! Sometimes it seems like they are so stubborn.

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They say that prison is a microcosm of the world. Well, if we’re a smaller version of the “outside” world, we must have inherited time displacement along with our disenfranchisement, because we are sometimes stuck in a time gone past.

Graterford Prison. The State Correctional Institution Graterford is one of the oldest penitentiaries in Pennsylvania, and it is definitely the largest institution in the state. Graterford is second only to Eastern Penitentiary in infamy. It is also the hub of all the state institutions. Residents from all the institutions around the state take cues from Graterford on issues affecting the prison population. They listen to the men of Graterford not out of fear, but a respect and admiration for the Graterford men’s ability to lead on pertinent issues – also, since it is not located in the middle of nowhere like the majority of other prisons, Graterford has more resources and a greater reach into the communities. But that predilection for Graterford’s wisdom may be waning.

The age of Graterford is reflected in its citizenry. It would be nothing to walk down one of the blocks that house the 500- or 600-plus individuals and come upon a group of men where a majority of them have already served at least 25-30 years in prison. Graterford holds the dubious distinction of housing the man who has served the most time in the country, and possibly the world: 64 years!

The men in Graterford are getting older and they’ve been fighting for decades, hoping they can pass the baton off to the younger men. But sometimes the age of some of the elders and the time they have served precludes the men from bridging the gap between different time periods. Not only are they unable to coalesce with the younger men, but it’s also sometimes hard to adapt to younger concepts that now rule the world. Needless to say, technology is one of those concepts.

The residents of Graterford are not completely oblivious to technological advances. We have televisions, so commercials alone are enough to “update” us on the newest products. But knowledge of the existence of new technology cannot supplant an experience with life-altering devices. So, even though we’ve heard of Jetsons-style products, we still live in a Flintstones environment. 

Many prisons across the country, especially in the federal system, have been evolving with society, allowing certain aspects of the new world into their institutions. The “Feds” have given all their residents emailing capabilities, with an actual email address. But Graterford, seemingly intent on being outpaced and outdone, doesn’t look too kindly on progressive change. Just to be clear, Pennsylvania itself is slow in adopting widely practiced trends, and marries itself to archaic ways of thinking. But Graterford, in particular… I don’t know. We only got remote controls for our televisions in 2008! Maybe Graterford is the “grumpy grandpa” of Pennsylvania. 

But in 2010, an event caused a little change in the Pennsylvania Department of Corrections landscape. In an effort to save money, about 2000 select men from across Pennsylvania’s state institutions were sent to prisons in Michigan and Virginia. When the men came back – well, the ones from Michigan – they had tall tales. They talked of living in a prison that was a bit more humane. They also talked about something that they were sure was to follow soon in Pennsylvania: MP3’s, handheld music devices, that we had only heard stories and seen advertisements about.

Some men had even brought their MP3’s back with them. Those men spent a large part of their day showcasing how the device was used. The MP3 technology was as foreign to the men of Graterford as a phaser gun used in the Star Trek movies was to people in the 1970’s. To be fair, Graterford houses some young men too, but the elder influence saturates the institution.  So, while some younger guys know about MP3’s and iPhones, the disconnect between young and old doesn’t allow the young to share their knowledge with the old.

Nevertheless, the rumors began to swirl: “Pennsylvania is going to be getting MP3’s!” It was a firestorm, and people began to write their playlists out. The thought of hearing songs that you’ve yearned to hear was appealing. No more having to listen to the WDAS radio station to hear “the oldies, but goodies”. No more listening to old cassette tapes that sound muffled because they’ve been played incessantly over the years. The constant rumor caused individuals to write the administration and ask, “When are they coming?” But, while we waited for these machines – we called them “iPads”, “MP3’s”, “computers” – the conversations continued about how these devices were used “in the Feds”, or “in Michigan”.

Probably sick of the deluge of inquiries about MP3’s, the administration finally responded,: “The Pennsylvania Department of Corrections will allow a device that plays a cache of digitized music and possibly transmits emails”. The furor was ramped up even more, with individuals speculating about what type of MP3 we would be receiving. Some men had their family members look up different devices on the internet and print the advertisement out and mail it to them. All of a sudden, the “Best Buy” circular was the most popular from the Sunday paper. People were saving their money for the machine and songs!

At last, the curtain was drawn back! We weren’t being offered MP3’s, but a tablet-style device (they called it a tablet, how the hell would we know if that was an accurate description?). The tablet and its accompanying service was being offered in Pennsylvania, however, Graterford would be the last to receive it. So, in Graterford, while the men in their 20’s, 30’s, and early-40’s lamented the fact that we’d have to wait longer, the older men couldn’t care less. And, during this wait, men from other institutions who transferred to Graterford had stories regaling the use of the tablets at the institutions whence they came.

Finally, the kiosks were installed in Graterford, indicative of the fact that the tablets were soon to follow. Those who were eagerly anticipating this new service were invigorated. Those who had come from other institutions and already had tablets were now able to “sync up” their devices to the kiosks and order more music. The rumor about email capability was confirmed. At this point, the men were just waiting for the notice that the tablets would be sold at commissary. But not all were jovial.

“I don’t need that crap!”

“I ain’t payin’ $150 just to listen to music.”

“My Walkman plays just fine!”

“You need to put that $150 to fightin’ your case!”

“Aint’ no tablet gonna get you out of jail!”

Those were the statements of the cynics, mostly oldheads. Like I said, the younger men had seen this technology before, and they couldn’t wait to get some Jigga, Jeezy, or Rick Ross. But some of the older men looked at the tablets as another well-disguised ploy by “the system” to placate the men of the prisons and make them docile. You could almost hear them in their Abe Simpson voice: “The television is the tool of the devil!”

The detractors were right in a few respects. In prison, $150 can be used for causes greater than music, and the odds are that a tablet can’t get anyone out of jail, per se. I would like to think that if $150 is the determinate for someone to obtain freedom, they wouldn’t choose a tablet over their freedom. But the ability to listen to music of your choice, and email your family, can sometimes provide solace. So, the tablet becomes an amenity like any other commissary product. We just have to prioritize our spending practices.

Even though there were critics of the new technology, the implementation of the kiosks set a stage. It was the stage of transition… or evolution, you might say. And watching the development of a “new realm” was hilarious.

When the kiosks were initially installed, only the men who had come from other prisons that already had the tablets knew what they were and how they worked. We were told they were kiosks, but we didn’t know anything about them. To the average Graterford citizen, it looked like a television with an empty tube. We didn’t know that just by touching the screen the apparatus became “activated”. 

Once the “techies” from the other institutions showed us how the kiosks worked, men started to test the kiosks out for themselves – well, the men that were excited about the kiosks’ presence. Men began to look at the sample “apps” that were on the kiosks, using their own individual PINs to get admittance; however, each man’s access was limited to just the “Documents” app until their tablet was purchased and on its way. But some men were using the kiosk just to get a feel of it, marveling at the touchscreen technology that wasn’t established in the prison. Then the entertainment came from those who had decried even the idea of the tablets.

“Look at them. That stuff ain’t gonna help them one bit.”

The anti-tablet individuals would walk past the kiosks while people were using them and grumble words of that nature. The scowls they would have were symptomatic of the palpable disdain they had for anything outside of their comfort-zone. But even with their oppositions to the up-and-coming “it” thing, they couldn’t help it if their curiosity was piqued!

The nonconformists would wait. They would wait for the block to be relatively clear, which was usually during Main yard on a nice day, or immediately after work lines and school was called (realize, a block of 500-600 people can only get but so clear. However, these men would wait until most people were out of sight and the rest were not paying much attention to block activities). They would sometimes saunter past the kiosks multiple times, just to survey the area. It would seem as if they were sizing-up the kiosks, like it was a Western-style standoff.

After that initial stalking ritual, they’d be ready to engage. They’d approach a kiosk and attempt to mimic the steps they saw others take. They had side-eyed the actions of other men using the kiosks, and viewed it is a menial task. Nevertheless, they were slightly taken aback when they touched the dark screen and it lit up. I guess it is sort of odd to turn something on without an actual “On/Off” button.

Every step after that showed the naiveté of the men who had missed firsthand experience of decades of evolution. It would take a few minutes before they would recognize that their touch would elicit the motion of the prompt or cursor. But, even that, was challenging. They would press their finger against the glass as if they were in competition with it, acting as if the glass had a strongman behind it providing 500-pund resistance. The force with which the men pushed the glass was completely contrary to the touchscreen concept.

Watching this interaction between man and technology was kind of comedic. It wasn’t funny because they’d struggle; it was funny to watch guys – mostly oldheads – covertly wrangle with the new machine after they had just scolded others for indulging in it. They’d be bent over, looking at the screen and poking at it like they were scientists in a testing facility. Some of the most amusing visuals would come when someone who had their face broke up would be squinting over their glasses, pushing the glasses up on the bridge of their nose, as if that would help them better understand.

Eventually, the oldheads would have to acquiesce: I’m gonna have to call on somebody for some help! And that somebody would normally be someone that’s younger. So, they’d look around for a minute, searching for a young man that they’d feel comfortable confiding in. That process of scrutinizing could take a few minutes, being as though trust is not easily attained around here. But once someone was chosen for the task, then they uneasy and roundabout solicitation would begin.

“Hey, youngin’, what’s up with this thing? I keep pushing in my number but it ain’t working. This thing broke already?”

In all actuality, this was a young man’s time to shine! The young men, finally, were able to teach the oldheads something. And they’d eagerly take on the task. As the tutorial proceeded, you could see the young guys intently trying to imbue their elder brethren with the understanding of technology. On the one hand, the oldheads seemed to forget that they had once spoken about these machines with vitriol in their voices, and they would now try to soak up as much information as they could, so they wouldn’t have to have too many more of these conspicuous sessions.

“Alright… thanks, youngbuck”. That’s how these impromptu meetings always end. Those words of gratitude are delivered, but I’m not sure how sincere the oldheads are when they say “thanks”. Not because they don’t mean it, but because I think they are still engrossed in thought, really hoping that they have completely grasped what they were just taught. They speak in the direction of the instructor, but their mind is still on the kiosk. Both men walk away from the kiosk slowly, with the oldheads occasionally looking back, as if to say: Look, kiosk, you ain’t gonna cause me trouble when I come back, right?

Even with the introduction and limited foray into the digital universe, the oldheads still weren’t that enthused about catching up with the outside world. The arrival of the tablets was just the next example of a forceful invasion into an antiquated world. 

We started receiving the tablets shortly after the installation of the kiosks. And, when they got here, they were the talk of the town. Even though we had seen the tablets prior to them being sold at Graterford – because of the individuals bringing the devices down from other institutions – it seemed like our ability to buy them made us look at them more intently. The men didn’t know what they were looking at, they just saw it was new!

Coincidentally, the tablets were actually indicative of the nature of Graterford’s environment: slightly behind the times. While we weren’t privy to testing different styles of tablets, we were able to see other kinds of tablets through commercials and advertisements. We could see that our tablets – produced by Global Tel Link Corporation (GTL) – were different from the ones we had seen on TV, or in the papers. Some of the differences had to do with security measures, but it was an ugly difference. An adequate comparison of our tablets could be summed up by this analogy: our tablets compare to the tablets in the streets, as old, block cell phones compare to iPhones. They are bulky, heavy, and not appealing to the eye at all. But they were new to us!

After the first batch of tablets came in, men would be in groups, trying to figure out the nuances of the devices. Men would be touching and scrolling on the screens all day. They’d learn the difference between a “touch” and a “longhold” to make certain selections. Their tablet “shopping carts” were filled with the music they wanted to purchase, more than they could afford. Men were happy to be typing emails, seeming like they were “texting” their family members. And the first person that discovered the “cut”, “copy”, and “paste” functions on the tablet was the person who symbolically discovered fire!

The oldheads watched these interactions. They might have been sitting at the table as a younger guy was showing his friends how many songs were on his tablet. The oldheads would listen as the young guys would talk abut the Meek Mills and Kendrick Lamar they had just bought. The oldheads would see the elation in men’s faces – men that were not that young, but were slightly younger than the oldheads – after they had bought some Eric B. Rakim, Public Enemy, or even Sugar Hill Gang.

“Youngbuck, how that thing sound?”

Again, the younger men would jump at the chance to ingratiate themselves with the oldheads. They’d try to find a song that would be closer to the oldheads’s liking and let him listen to it. They they’d show the oldhead how to scroll, which could be funny because someone who hasn’t used this technology doesn’t realize that they can control whether the screen scrolls fast or slow.

“Oh, shoot, the screen went too far down!”

And then the young men would show the oldheads how to find songs in the internal catalogue. That would be the clincher; the oldheads, all of a sudden, would see the value in the tablet. I don’t want to assume that this is because they found these artists in the tablet’s catalogue: The Temptations, The Delfonics, The Dells, The O’Jays, The Whispers, or any number of groups from back in the day. Whatever the case, the fuse was now lit. Those machines weren’t so contemptable after all.

Now, a lot of oldheads were beginning to take notice of the men who had bought the tablets, where before they would have just scoffed at them. If they had paid attention earlier, they would have noticed that some of the oldheads did buy tablets as soon as they were being sold. The few oldheads that had tablets would have their earphones on, mimicking The Temptations’ steps and crooning out loud like they were on the corner in their neighborhood. Those few oldheads that had bought tablets upon the initial offering were probably unaware that they essentially bridged a longstanding gap between new and old. GTL should have paid them for promotion!

Now the young, old, and everything in between, have tablets in Graterford. Now guys are song scouting by looking at friends’ lists to see what songs they might have that are worthy of purchase. The cell blocks sometimes bear resemblance to the streets, where men are walking down the block and typing on their tablet at the same time, reminding me of the video of the woman texting in the mall and obliviously falling into the mall fountain.

While the oldheads have become more accepting of the new technology, the email capability, to them, is still an affront to traditional methods of communication. Also, aside from the oldheads’ tight grasp on the past, GTL doesn’t help with its sphinxlike concept that our families have to navigate in order to set-up an email account for a person in here. So, the clamor for red dots (indicators placed over our messaging app to show one has received an incoming email) is not as prevalent amongst the older men, as with the younger guys. That is, until one of their younger family members from outside these walls almost compels them to start using the email service.

“Uncle Hasaan, I set-up an email account, so we could write each other, okay?”

Who could resist the attempts of a young family member who’s trying to keep in touch?

Today, tablets are almost as ubiquitous as shower shoes in Graterford. There are still some that oppose the introduction of this technology, and they are holding fast to their position. Plus, GTL’s shaky service and oft-failing devices does nothing to dissuade the dissenters’ viewpoints. But, overall, a below-average product has done nothing to stop the majority from attempting to be part of a forward-moving society. To see someone with a Walkman in here is like… well… like seeing someone with a VCR out there!

Has this technology affected the men who are in Graterford negatively? I don’t know. But I can tell you this: I used to say, that if all the power went out in the world, incarcerated people would have the best chance of surviving because we are so used to adapting with little to work with. We haven’t been “corrupted” by the lures of the world, no uncontrollable desire to text people. But, recently, the kiosks went down on a block in the prison… and that block’s residents are extremely eager for those kiosks to come back on!

I can’t decipher if the technological invasion is negative or not, but I no longer believe that we would be able to seamlessly adapt it the power went out. We now like to “text” too!

Vernon Robinson CB3895
SCI Graterford
P.O. Box 244
Graterford, PA 19426

Vernon Robinson is currently incarcerated at the State Correctional Institution Graterford in Pennsylvania.  He specializes in editing and proofreading and has a few published works to his credit.  He is also the secretary of the Lifers' Right to Redemption Committee - a committee dedicated to the eradication of Life Without Parole sentences and educating the public about the Life-sentenced individual's capacity to change and become an asset to society.  Vernon considers his greatest accomplishment to be his beautiful daughter.  His hope is that some of the things he does will somehow influence others positively.

Thursday, April 19, 2018

Sparrow Feathers

By Burl N. Corbett

As I limped along the roofed walkway outside the commissary building, my recalcitrant left knee silently grumbling, a tiny feather spiraled to the ground. Before I could lean and snatch it up, an affronted sparrow plummeted from its nest and seized it with its beak. There we stood, the bird and I, contending over a silly feather.

It was early November; nesting season long past. What use could the bird have for the feather now that its spring offspring had...ahem...sprung the nest? Perhaps it served double duty as a chink of insulation against the approaching winter. Or was it the avian equivalent of the bronzed baby booties placed on living room mantels by sentimental mothers to evoke pleasant memories? All I knew for certain was that my pipsqueak adversary wanted it more than me.

The truculent little runt, the feather firmly scissored in its beak, glared at me with disdain and hopped a few times in triumph. Then with a wee victorious chirp, it flew up to its shadowed nook, unwittingly taking with it a small segment of the collage I was constructing for my youngest granddaughter, Ava. Well, thought I, I'll just have to scavenge more material somewhere else. Perhaps I could find a soft breast feather from one of the annoying resident geese that booby-trap the walks and lawns with their ubiquitous droppings, or maybe pick up a glistening wing feather from the pair of crows who patiently wait on rooftops every mealtime for postprandial offerings from dissatisfied gourmets. No matter the source—whether donated by our resident Canada geese or by the occasional sea gull blown inland from a Lake Erie storm—every dropped pinfeather or tail-feather becomes grist for my artistic mill: at the age of sixty-seven, I've become a collagist of no small renown among the only cognoscenti whose opinions I value, my four grandchildren.

When I came to prison seven years ago, the three girls and one boy were very young—the oldest not yet eight—and I had scarcely begun to teach them all the things my only grandmother (indeed, my only grandparent) had taught me: the names of her childhood friends, the flowers and birds, and a hundred other small facts that helped enable me to navigate this strange and wonderful world. Alas, it's too late now to pass on that knowledge to my rapidly aging grandchildren, but I still entertain faint hope that if I ever get out—and live long enough—perchance I can hand down my grandmother's wisdom to my great-grandchildren. So for now, I have to be content, if not pleased, by a long-distance relationship via what my hip "tween" granddaughters sneeringly call "snail mail."

Troubled by my inability to buy them birthday and Christmas presents, l was at a loss for what to do. Then I read in The New Yorker how Picasso and Braque had invented the art form of collage. Voila! Through serendipity I had discovered a solution! I first sketched crude outlines of owls on the cardboard backs from writing tablets, then I Scotch-taped goose and sparrow plumage inside the lines. After coloring yellow their hooked beaks and glowering eyes with a colored pencil, I drew balloon queries, asking "Whoo, do you love?" and adding a parenthetical aside, "It better be Grandpa!"

I sent the first two of these masterworks to my older granddaughters, Savannah and Aryanna, and was working on the third when the Sparrow and I had our little standoff. My initial disappointment over the loss of the feather was tempered by the realization that Ava would be quite angry with her inconsiderate Grandpa for stealing even a tiny part of the poor sparrow's winter bedding. And could I blame her? After all, hadn't my beloved Granny taught me compassion for all of God's sentient creatures, even... ahem..."jailbirds"?

The next day I found an uncontested feather to complete my masterpiece, and I hope that it now hangs above the bed of nine-year-old Ava, a silent reminder for her to pray for not only her faraway grandpa, but all the birds as well.

The End

Burl N. Corbett HZ6518
SCI Albion
10475 Route 18
Albion, PA 16475-0002
Born 6/9/47 in Reading, PA.  Raised on a 123-acre sheep farm only three crow miles from John Updike´s famous sandstone farmhouse of “Pigeon Feathers,” The Centaur, and Of the Farm.  Graduated from Daniel Boone High School in 1965.  Ran away to Greenwich Village to become a beatnik in 1966 with only a Martin guitar and the clothes on my back.  Lived among the counterculture for 3 years, returning disillusioned to PA for good in 1968.  Worked on a mink farm; poured steel in a foundry; chased the sun as a cross-country pipeliner; drove the big rigs, baby!; picked tomatoes with migrant workers; tended bar on the old skid row Bowery; worked as a reporter, columnist, and photographer for two Southeastern Pennsylvania newspapers; drove beer truck (hic!); was a “HEY, CULLIGAN MAN!”; learned how to plaster, stucco, and lay stone; published both fiction and nonfiction in several nationally distributed magazines and literary quarterlies; got married and raised four children; got divorced and fell into the bottle; and came to prison at the age of 60 with no previous criminal offenses other than a 25 year-old DUI. The “crime”? Self-defense in my own house without financial means to hire a decent lawyer.  Since becoming the “guest” of the state in 2007, I have won five PEN Prison Writing Awards (two first and three honorable mentions); the first and only prize of $500 in the 2013 Eaton Literary Agency short fiction contest; written a children/young adult book, Coon Tales; a novel of the 1967 “Summer of Love,” Dreaming of Oxen; a magic realism novel, A Redneck Ragnorak, and many short stories and memoirs.  My first novel, A Haven from Violence, and Coon Tales, are available at Xlibris.com or Amazon.com.

Thursday, April 12, 2018

Oklahoma Department of Corrections and Death Row

By Wendell Grissom

Admin Note:  Via personal correspondence, I asked Wendell Grissom to educate me on Death Row in Oklahoma.  I received a letter back in response and I'm sharing an edited version of it with his permission.  I am deeply shocked and disturbed by what he's described and I imagine you will be too. I hope you will leave a comment for Wendell and be moved to stand up against the conditions that he and so many others endure.

Hello, 

I figured today would be a good day to sit down and write a bit about the Oklahoma Department of Corrections and their Death Row. I don´t know exactly what you´d like to know, but I´ll try to tell you what all I can.

First, I´ve been on Oklahoma´s Death Row since June 30th of 2008. It wasn´t good when I first got here and it´s only gotten worse since.  Please don´t mistake what I have to say as just an inmate who'd like to tell a bunch of lies to try to make Oklahoma look bad.  What I have to say is true, or at least, has been my experience.  If there´s praise to be given, I most certainly would give it, but unfortunately there´s not much to “praise about” here.  

Oklahoma´s Death Row is located on the H-Unit, which is separate but still part of the Oklahoma State Prison, better known as “OSP.”  OSP has a very long and dark history. Anyone with a computer and internet access can read it for themselves. But the H-Unit was built for Death Row and Disciplinary Unit (D.U.).  Oklahoma treats their death row inmates the same as they do their D.U. inmates, yet most on death row, in spite of what we’ve done, are not the type of inmates that the D.U. is normally receiving and dealing with. D.U. is for troublemakers, gang related inmates and the like. Most all the inmates here on death row are quiet and don´t really cause any problems. We do have a few knuckleheads, but they´re usually only acting up when one of the corrections officers working here does something to provoke them.

The H-Unit is underground. My cell is four cement walls and a cement ceiling. The only window I have is in the door and it looks out into the hallway.  We are supposed to receive one hour of recreation every day, but there´s no “yard” to go to here. All that is available for us is roughly 18´ X 25´ cement. You can´t see anything because of the 25-30 foot cement walls, and the only opening is at the very top, which allows fresh air and if the sun´s out, a little sunlight (if you go at the right time of day). There´s no place to sit, and no restroom either. Inmates just have to go on the ground if it´s an emergency, because the c/o´s (corrections officers) aren’t going let you come back in. I personally don´t go to the yard here, because to me, it´s not worth going.  So yes, if you´re wondering, I´ve been in this cell since 2008. The only times I leave it are for visits or medical appointments. Also, the c/o´s try to discourage inmates from going to the yard by making us strip down – handcuffed and shackled, then once you´re on the yard, they go into your cell and tear it all up. I´ve learned it´s better to just stay in my cell.

The H-Unit was built and designed for inmates to move on their own, and when I first got here, it was that way. But some inmate on the D.U. side did something, so now whenever we leave our cells, we're stripped and chained all up.

I´m sure you´ve probably heard some of the controversy regarding the executions here in Oklahoma in the past two or three years. Oklahoma was making mistake after mistake. This is public record. Look up the executions of inmates Clayton Lockett, Charles Warner and the three attempts to execute Richard Glossip. Oklahoma has no qualifications to properly carry out an execution. The State was trying to literally use whatever they wanted, ignoring its own protocol and guidelines. This caused inmate Clayton Lockett an unbearable amount of pain and suffering. At the time of his execution, I was in the cell located directly under the execution chamber and Richard Glossip was my cellie then.  We could hear Clayton Lockett screaming, it was so loud and horrible. It took Clayton Lockett roughly 45 to 60 minutes to die, and it wasn´t by the lethal injection drugs OSP used, it was finally from a massive heart attack because of what they were doing to him. Now, I know all this sounds unreal. I´m sure people think that OSP is surely more trained and professional than that, but the simple truth is, they aren´t. And yet they´re in charge of it all.  You or anyone else who would like to read about it, if you have any doubts, can go look it up and read it with your own eyes. Clayton Lockett's execution brought worldwide news and coverage. OSP and the DOC came under investigation. Then came inmate Charles Warner´s execution. OSP used non-approved drugs to kill Mr. Warner. It was not only un-approved, but illegal as well. This brought on even more trouble for the state of Oklahoma.  Then came Richard Glossip´s execution. The first and second execution dates got stayed by the courts, but on the 3rd attempt, they took Mr. Glossip all the way, right down to where they strapped hi down and put the needle into his arm. Then they let him literally lay there for two hours, thinking that at any minute he was going to die. He kept asking, “What´s wrong?” No one would give him an answer. Then they finally came and got him, took him out and put him back in with me in my cell. As I told you, we had been cellies for over four years. That two hour experience up there really affected Richard’s state of mind. I´m no psychologist but it did something to him, and he´s still not the same up to this very day. If you´d like to read more on Richard Glossip and his story, go to: www.RichardGlossip.com.

Like I said, all I´ve been telling you is public record. The Department of Corrections (DOC) here in Oklahoma went through a huge change.  The Head Director of Oklahoma DOC was fired, our warden here was forced to retire, a whole lot of people were hired to “fix” Oklahoma, they´ve come up with new execution protocols and soon it´ll be up and going again, but at the moment, it´s all still on hold.

But all I´ve been talking about so far, is executions.  Let´s talk about other issues here.

1. The canteen dept. here will sell you something then not bring it to you.  Yet when you ask about it, they say they brought it, end of story.  There´s nothing you can do either, because no one cares here about you, the inmate.

2. My friend, Raymond Johnson, ordered $60 in songs for his MP3 and $20 for a new set of headphones, back in April of 2017. He´s never got them, nor has he received a refund of his money.  I myself lost a $28 hobbycraft order due to “OSP lost it.” I never did get it and, of course, no refund either.  It happens a lot here, the “system” beating us out of our money in some way or another, but no one holds them accountable for it.  We can´t do anything, and no one else cares to try on our behalf.

3.  My friend, Raymond Johnson, has written down some of his concerns as well, they are as follows:
   a. Wrongful death lawsuits (not for botched executions).
   b. Guards (c/o´s) facing felony charges for not helping an inmate who was inside his cell on fire.     They simply let him burn to death, when all they had to do was, open the door and put it out. (All public record!)
   c. The Trust fund department controlling our money, won´t give us statements when we ask for one.  I personally believe it´s because they don´t want us having a record of our money and where it goes, basically to cover their own butts.
  d. Visitation: Our families come from long distances, mine from Arkansas, Raymond´s from Kentucky. Yet sometimes they´ll be turned away for no legitimate or reasonable reason at all.  Some of the excuses have been: no sandals or certain types of clothing items, no jewelry, any excuse they can find.  My mother, who´s 79 years old, dressed as a 79 year old dresses, has been turned away on 3-4 different occasions.  Last being, she had to go to the bathroom, and they made her leave.  Here at the H-Unit, we have no physical contact at all.  I have absolutely no way to touch my mother or anyone else who comes to visit.  We both have to yell at each other through a small hole in the Plexiglas in order to talk or hear each other.
   e. The administration here covers up for one another. The inmate can clearly be in the right, but we will always be in the wrong.

4. Inmate Mail:  When we write a letter, we have to give it to a c/o to put into the mailbag. And a c/o brings us our incoming mail.  There have been guards deliberately tossing our outgoing and incoming mail into the trash, yet no one does anything.  They do whatever they want, and they´re not held accountable.

I could literally go one and on, one of my biggest issues here of late was over the lack of dental care.  They will not give us any dental care. All they do is pull out our teeth and just to get them to do that takes an act of God.  In the past month, I have had to get three teeth pulled out and it took me over a year and extreme pain to get it done.  My attorneys finally called up here and made them take me out to pull my teeth.  I could of kept them if only they´d filled a simple cavity five years ago.  And if you're in pain, sorry, no pain meds for inmates.

Now, as for the medical department, here, I have no complaints.  The medical department has always helped me if I needed it.  I guess they don´t think we deserve dental care though, which is a whole other department.

You know, I realize where I´m at, in prison.  It´s not supposed to be like a summer camp experience.  But our punishment is being here, and for some, eventually being executed. Yet, these c/o´s come in intentionally, just trying to make our every single day here a living hell in whatever way they can.  We´re still human beings.  People don´t treat dogs the way we´re treated here.  The food is always cold, nasty.  They butcher horses here in Oklahoma and the meat goes to the prison system. I´m not going to eat a horse.  I did once by accident, it wasn´t very good at all.  Hell, what´s next? Dogs? Cats?  It all almost seems too bizarre, yet I tell you the very truth.

My friend Jared Jones, who lived in the cell next to me, he took his own life about six months ago.  He felt that suicide was better than to go another day in here.  To tell you the truth, I´ve been fighting suicidal thoughts myself a lot here lately.  I´m tired.  I just sit in a cement square box day in and day out, year after year.  I´ve been in here since June of 2008.

You know, it was once said that you can judge a society by how they treat their lowest citizens in it.

Also, Paul Harvey, a respected radio personality, said once over the radio, that “If you want to see the real scum of the earth, go to any prison at shift change.”  How true that is.  

Yes, I did some horrible things and even though I was intoxicated beyond any sense or reason, there´s absolutely no excuse for it.  But I didn´t try to get away with what I did, once I sobered up, I felt so bad that I confessed to it all.  I admitted what I had done and I´ll pay for it with my own life when Oklahoma executes me.  All I ask, all of any of us ask, is to be treated with the respect we give you, to live out what we have left to live in peace.

I´m in Oklahoma. Oklahoma is supposed to be considered the Bible Belt.  Well, I´d like to meet some of these so called Bible people, because all I´ve known since being here is mean, spiteful, hateful people.  I haven´t seen nor met the prison chaplain even.  I honestly don´t think we even have one here.  All I´ve seen here in Oklahoma is people who are just waiting to kill us.  Oklahoma´s so kill happy that they even went as far as to put the State´s right to kill as punishment into the State´s Constitution, and guess what?  On voting day, 70% of Oklahomans voted for it.  Sounds to me a whole lot of people have no problem with killing a human being.  Wasn´t one of the 10 Commandments “Thou shalt not kill”?  Guess these Bible Belt Christians missed that one, and the one about mercy and forgiveness.  But I don´t hate them, I´m just telling you how it is here in Oklahoma. It´s really sad people believe and are the way they are.  Our world is full of hate, anger, revenge.  I almost welcome my upcoming execution, be it when it is, just so I can leave this place, even if it´s through death.  This isn´t no life, hell, I´m already inside my tomb, only I´m not dead yet, is all.  I even sleep on a cement slab.

Though it is the way it is here in Oklahoma, I´ve chosen not to hate back.  What use would that do?  I would only become like them, and I sure won´t stoop down to their level.  We all (every single citizen in the world) have sinned and broken the law at some point or another. I know a lot of these so called self-righteous people watching over me, some actually should be in here with me.

The human race will never be perfect. It´s in our genes to fail, be it in any manner, it keeps pushing forward and growing as we go mentally, spiritually and emotionally.  I hate where I´m at, I´m sincerely regretful for what I´ve done and if I could give my own life to undo it, I would, in a minute. But the reality of it is, I can´t.  But I can accept the responsibility of what I´ve done and do all within my power to try to help bring peace to the victims involved.  If I have to die for them to find closure, peace, healing then as soon as the state´s ready, I will be too.  I only wish that they could see and understand the sorrow, regret and sadness I feel for what I´ve done, then maybe they could understand and see that I´m not the monster they think I am and truly understand the pain that I feel for what I have done to them.

Well, I guess this is it.  Is this what you were wanting?  I did not know what to really write, this is just what came out as I went.  If you would like to ask me specific questions, I could answer them for you? Or give me an idea of what else you´re looking for……..

Wendell Grissom 575281
Oklahoma State Prison
P.O. Box 97
McAlester, OK 74502
My name is Wendell Arden Grissom.  I’m 48 years old, 5’10”, 180 lbs, with black hair.   I enjoy reading and writing, motorcycles, hunting and fishing, traveling and family.  I’m divorced, no children.  I’m a truck driver by trade and have traveled through all 48 of the continental United States.  I’m currently on Death Row in Oklahoma.  If anyone would care to write to me, I’d welcome all letters.